June 2, 2010

An alpha woman

As I pack up to go to Ohio, where it seems everything is out of my control, I realize that I am not at ease in leaving the life here. I am the alpha dog of the house!
Everyone listens to me: from the dog, to the handyman and cleaner, the accountant, the plumber. Add the neighbors who seem to value my opinion, others on the island, and there you have it. I feel very alpha here.
I'll lose my status in Cleveland, where I will be a patient and also relying on the kindness of strangers for my day to day goings on.
It was that way when I bought the property here and I didn't ever foresee a day where I would feel alpha in this environment. Now I do and feel uneasy about the ways of life north of the border! Weird, huh?

5 comments:

Life's a Beach! said...

Just dive in and it'll be fine! Have a nice trip Zina!

lagovistajenn said...

You have created a wonderful life for yourself on Isla. I am sure you will enjoy your trip to the US. Safe travels Z.

Jamqueen said...

Have a great & productive trip!

Sue said...

I know what you mean, I never like leaving, even when I'm going 'home' to see family. I feel vulnerable the entire time I'm away, like nobody will take care of things that way I do (and I'm right, but it still works out even if it isn't done 'my way'). So try to enjoy your trip and eat strawberries.

易英易英 said...

任何你憂慮的事,你都應該去採取一點行動,不要只是在那邊想 ..................................................